Well here we are the end of another year. Life goes on but not always as we had probably been hoping for. Have just had my second Christmas without Jess and it's still not getting any easier, there is always that feeling at the back of my mind that she should still be here.
We never actually got to spend a Christmas together but I know if we had of done it would have been great fun. As some of you are aware Jess adored brussel sprouts, her nickname at work was Sprout, so I know she would have been in her element trying to persuade me that sprouts are wonderful. I have always hated them ever since I was a child and that has not changed. I will eat the very small ones but the big ones not a chance!!!! I spent Christmas with Mary who has been my rock all the way through this difficult time and as always her Christmas dinner was beautiful. I know I have not been easy to live with what with the crying, the mood swings, the anger but one way or another I have made it to the end of 2018. Thank you Mary for your continued friendship and support.
I feel very lucky to have made some wonderful friends this year. I can safely say that two people in particular have made life a lot easier for me. Carolyn and Naomi my friends from Halifax, have made me laugh, cry, walk the other way, have fun again, but most of all they have supported me with true friendship. I will never be able to thank them enough for this and I admit I am looking forward to 2019 and seeing what adventures we get upto next.
Then there are those people who have been on this journey with me since the beginning and you all know who you are. You have listened to me, made me laugh, given me advice and generally supported me without any question. I extend a heartfelt thank you to each and every one of you. So what is 2019 going to hold????
I will also be doing what I can to raise the awareness of Sepsis. I have some ideas for fundraising which I am going to look into and also do what I can to get further donations to the JustGiving page which I have set up. If you should wish to make a donation the webpage is https://www.justgiving.com/crowdfunding/elayna-reeves.
I have been waiting for over 6 months now for some information and to say the least I am feeling pretty fed up but I will not be beaten and hopefully this will eventually appear. This is something that I need to help with the next step forward. I will be contacting the Parliamentary and Health Service Ombudsman to make a complaint about the hospital where Jess was treated. There are far too many unanswered questions and I don't want others to have to go through what I have over the previous months. Something doesn't add up and the time has come for this to be looked into by the correct authorities. So it just remains for me to wish you all a Happy and Healthy New Year. Thank you for taking the time to read this and love to you all. Ellie xxxxxxxxxxx
I cannot end this without saying I miss Jess everyday and she is never far from my thoughts. I will not give up my fight to get the justice she so deserves until I have exhausted all lines of enquiry. I know she is watching over me and wants me to be happy and get life back together which I am trying to do slowly. I will always love Jess she was just one very special woman xxxxxxxxxx